The run away of Jonas and Gabriel

I have learned so much about my community and that it isn't perfect at all. I can see colors, I have feelings and I feel perfect. But I can never look my dad in the eye again. He thinks that Gabriel needs to be release but I couldn't let that happened. The plan was that the giver will ask to get a car. Then the driver would bring him to a place while I would be hiding in the vehicle. Than I will get out the giver will give me a whole pack of food. The giver would be going back and I would be already on my way. When the ceremony has ended they would be wondering were I am but after a while they would forget about me and my name would never be said again. But than I found out that Gabe was going to be released the next morning. The night before Gabriel was supposed to be released I took Gabriel on the back of my bicycle and cycled away. Gabriel was still sleeping. I will use all the strength and everything what I have. This will work, we will find another place. We cycled through fields we will stop for a while and eat and sleep on the ground and restore some energy. But food started to run out and it was getting cold. I gave Gabe some pleasant memories so that he would stop crying. We were eventually really far from the community.
I kind of felt that I shouldn't have left because then I would not be hungry right now, but than Gabriel wouldn't be here. We sometimes had to hide but after a while there were no people anymore. We were just cycling trough fields. Than at the top of the hill he saw a sledge. We went down together. While we were going down I was hearing noises and I knew it was music and I heard people singing but perhaps it could have been an echo.

The release

I went to the annex and told the giver that my father was going to release a twin the one who is heavier will stay and the other one will be released. So I asked If I could watch it but than I remembered that it was this morning so it was already over. The giver told me that I could till watch it the morning release, he told me that I had access to anything. I was very excited because I have never seen a release in my life. So the receiver turned the box to on and asked if he could see the morning release and than the person said yes. I watched the screen as it turned from blank to the morning release. I saw his father measuring the two weight the one that was the heaviest went with the nurse and was brought to the center the other one stayed with my father. He was comforting the baby like he told me, he used the voice that he alway uses on Gabriel. Than my father took a needle and was gentle inserting it in the newborn head. I was wondering why he was putting it in his head.  I continued to watch the new child, no longer crying, moved his arms and legs in a jerking motion. Then he went limp. His head to the side, his eyes half open. Than he was still.

I remembered the gesture,posture and expression from some were. My father started cleaning up the things and putting the baby on a piece of carton and took it into another room and opened a little door and threw it inside. It looked the same sort of chute into which trash was deposited at school. I couldn't believe my eyes my father just killed a baby! He lied to me I could never look him in his eyes the way I used to. I couldn't go back.

Stirrings

I went to my Job as a receiver, and the giver gave me a memory of a family that had feelings with grandparents and grandmothers with people who had a very strong feeling it was very power full and I first didn't know what it was and than the giver said that it was love. The giver explained the meaning to me and it made me so happy from inside I liked the feeling of love. And the Giver explained to me why we didn't have it any more. I went home and asked my parents about if they loved me, and they got angry and  said watch your language. Mom said that love is a to powerful word Instead say do you enjoy me. The next morning I didn't take the pill, because the pill makes the feelings go away and I liked having feelings. I haven't been taking the pills for a while and i kind of feel guilty for the pleasurable dreams I have been having, but i couldn't go back to the place with no feelings. I felt so much love for Fiona and Asher but they couldn't feel it back.

The Job/receiver

I was very nervous about this Job, I had read the rules very well, one of the rules was that I was allowed to lie, but in the years I have lived I have learned that I was not allowed to lie so that was really new to me.

I went to have breakfast and afterwards I went to my first  day, of my job as a receiver. I was riding from school with Fiona to my first job. I went into the building called the Annex it was very small place only had one desk with a woman sitting behind it. Than she told me to go into the room on her right, before I felt really uncomfortable and than the woman talked to me and I felt less anxious. I entered the room, and saw an old man with a long beard. It was very silent for a while and than the man spoke, he told me,'' at the beginning today, this moment  at least to me you are the receiver. Than man started explaining about his life so now I know more about him. He than asked me to lie down, he  his hands on my back and I closed my eyes I could see snow and a hill, and me being at the top of that hill and going down that hill, it was the best time I had ever had.  But the Giver said that it was not only good memories but there are also painful memories. After those memories I had so many questions,that I had to ask him. Like if I would see all those colors, and he said that I will see them eventually. Before I was allowed to leave he told me  that my sessions are totally private and I am not allowed to discuss it with anyone.

The ceremony of 12

I was so excited about the ceremony of twelve, I was finally an adult. I was so nervous we went threw all the ceremonies, one, two, three, four , five etc. Now finally our group had taken place in the front row changing with the elevens. We were arranged by our birth numbers, Our birth number were rarely used after our naming but each child knew there birth number. I was born the 19th child born this year. But technically my number is eleven-nineteen because there were other nine teens in other age groups. There was another girl who was the same number as me but that doesn't matter because I was going to be twelve and I would be an adult and age would not matter.
The ceremony had begun. The chief elder of the community who was elected each year. The chief elder started the speech, and afterwards she started calling out the numbers and giving them there assignments. After a while Asher was called and than Fiona, I thought it was my turn but than I heard the name Piere, and he was after me, I was skipped! I felt so alone and embarrassed I just wanted to disappear. The Chief elder apologized to me and the community and asked me to come on stage, I felt nervous from the inside. She said that I have been selected, but i didn't know what she meant. Than she said,''Jonas has been selected to be our next receiver of memory''. But I still didn't understand, Than I listened to the chief elder with unease and was listening to what she had to say. After the ceremony everyone was looking at me and I felt very uncomfortable.

My community

Our community is a perfect place to stay, it's the most organized community you have ever seen. There are a few rules and regulations you have to follow. These rules and regulations are made by the government.

With every ceremony you get something special until you are twelve, after the age of twelve the age doesn't matter, some people even forget there age. So after each age you get something special, added to show your independence at the ages of four, five, six, seven, etc. I am almost going to be twelve, and my sister will be almost nine. At the ceremony of nine you get a bicycle. Actually I am not supposed to teach my sister how to cycle, but I have already taught her how to cycle on my bicycle, so that she could ride away after the ceremony.
At the age of nine you have to also start volunteer work. I do volunteer work after school. For volunteer work you could take care at the house for the old.

You can get a new child, when you have already been married for about a year or more. you get your new children's during the ceremonies. Like we have gotten one his name is Gabriel but we call him Gabe. But he is kind of on parole,sort of, because his weight isn't normal. If he doesn't change he will be released. All these rules are made by the government and they hardly ever get changed.